blame me 'cause i am nothing.

hate me. at least it's something.

rules

don't steal this is pretty self-explanatory. i poured my heart and soul into willa back in 2022. though a lot has changed and i have developed hundreds of au's for her, willa means the world to me and i would like to keep her unique and let her thrive.no ooc drama i'm tired of the pettiness and the clique behavior. i'm here to escape the outside world , not bring the same shit i deal with out there in here. i know it's impossible to be universally liked , so i'm not expecting that. let's just not make it into something it doesn't need to be. we're all adults. :)activity i am around most of the time, though my muse may not always be. even if i'm unable to bring myself to come up with a response, i will always be around to plot and scheme. i do have mental health struggles, so it's not unlikely for me to leave messages on read from time to time, so please do not take it personally if i happen to take a bit to reply.

discord i am discord friendly and i'm absolutely obsessed with worldbuilding in a server ( or 20 ). i'm not comfortable handing it out immediately, but that is absolutely subject to change if the vibes are vibing. please do not hound me for my username if i have not offered it yet. let's be respectful!no-nos this shouldn't need to be said but i have a zero tolerance policy when it comes to ableist speech and any derogatory comments in general. if you feel the need to drop a smooth brain joke in my dms , i won't hesitate to drop you. & i won't apologize about it. be better.trigger warnings i have never been good at tagging these on my posts before, so i will be listing potential warnings below.trigger warnings : murder , drugs , weapons , toxic relationships , childhood trauma , violence , mental & physical abuse , sexual assault.

biography

ㅤname:ㅤ ㅤwilla jane barlowe
ㅤage:ㅤ ㅤ27
ㅤgender:ㅤ ㅤfemale
ㅤspecies:ㅤ ㅤhuman

❝ god must be doing cocaine

ㅤeyes:ㅤ brown
ㅤhair:ㅤ dirty blonde
ㅤdistinguishing features:ㅤ small, faded scars on both hands
ㅤface claim:ㅤ madelyn cline

ㅤparents:ㅤ harrison barlowe
ㅤsiblings:ㅤ mckenna sonder
ㅤnotable connections:ㅤ ㅤbeckett sharpe, asher judd

you are so much more than the pain inside you

ㅤdate of birth:ㅤ may 22ㅤeducation:ㅤ homeschooled , no college
ㅤresidence:ㅤ undisclosed
ㅤethnicity:ㅤ caucasian
ㅤoccupation:ㅤ freelancer

ㅤphysical conditions:ㅤ n/a
ㅤmental health:ㅤ fragileㅤzodiac:ㅤ gemini
ㅤalignment:ㅤ true neutral
ㅤmbti:ㅤ isfp-t

ㅤnotable skills:ㅤ ㅤcrying , complaining , bitching , moaning , knows her way around a crime scene , can properly dispose of a dead body , could tell you the best entry points in the human body to insert a blade for a clean kill.

Willa Jane Barlowe was born Delilah Marie Sonder in May of 1999. She lived a happy life with loving parents for a solid four years before everything was snatched away from her; before she was snatched away. She was raised to be respectful of adults. She had always been told they could be trusted; that they should be trusted. She didn't know that only applied to the people in her family. This left her vulnerable.She didn't know people could be monsters too.On her fifth birthday, Willa's parents brought her to her favorite place: the local botanical gardens. She had always had an obsession with flowers; grabbing every single one she would pass until her pockets were full. Sunflowers were her absolute favorite. Unfortunately, she had only ever seen them in pictures or in movies. So when a stranger approached her at the gardens with a sunflower in his hand, she quickly found herself blinded by her own excitement. Adults are supposed to be trusted, right?Harrison Barlowe had a tragic life of his own. His wife and daughter had been the victims of a burglary gone wrong. He blamed himself for their deaths. Had he been home instead of out practicing his new hobby, he could have saved them. The loss of his family impacted him more than he would care to admit. He tried to convince himself that the killing was some sort of vigilante justice; that he wanted to find and punish the men who had slaughtered his family. The truth was that he had been fascinated with hurting people long before they were gone. In fact, it was the very reason he wasn't home to protect them that dreadful night.

At first, Delilah Willa was simply a placeholder. He just needed someone around. It wasn't until he felt she was getting in the way of his extracurricular activities that he decided to include her in the secret part of his life. She started as bait. She was cute and friendly and stuck to the social norm of respect your elders. She didn't fight Harrison. Not when she was thoroughly convinced that he was her father.As the years went on, her involvement in his activities became more relevant as he began to assign her more important tasks. She learned how to clean up after him as he was too tired to do it himself. He trained her for months, using watermelons as an example for the gore she would be scrubbing away and forcing her to listen to women screaming for hours on end in an attempt to make her numb.Harrison brought Willa to all of the "seminars" and meetings held by his colleagues - those who dabbled in interests similar to his. It was there that she got a good look at the inner workings of the operation her father was a part of ( and learned how much she hated it ).He wanted to flaunt her to his colleagues.Unfortunately, she never met his expectations. He didn't hesitate to let her know how much of a failure she was because of how emotional and empathetic she was. She was constantly compared to the associates of his colleagues with questions such as why can't you be more like [ ... ] The more he insulted and belittled her, the higher the wall she had started constructing around herself became.This would lead to her demise.